Need to blog more

I really need to do this more, have the time, the equipments and the encouragement, the thing I lack is confidence. Am scared of being judged, this not being about everything that I am, and completely opening to others. Today the win made me to "Just do it", but now am back to the same scenario.

I have a story to tell with all the good words, and it all comes to my mind. Don't even have to pause for the words, but I still freeze the moment open this site. Am still scared to put myself for display. Always hated being photographed, you will find me behind the camera. I just don't find myself to be good enough to be the on the front. Am a terrible spokesperson, a terrible dancer, terrible singer when am in a platform and when there are ppl to judge me.

I hate being judged, so I tend to stay within the norms set by the society. For all those who thought me to be the rebellious kind, this might come as a surprise, but those who really know me will understand.

And now I understood what my problem really was, ADHD, my thoughts tends to wander off. So will not make a good blogger. And you really have to be more open, which is not a good option for me. I like to keep my secrets, not cos being mysterious is sexy, cos those secrets will hurt lot of ppl and relations.