Over the years...

Need to blog more

I really need to do this more, have the time, the equipments and the encouragement, the thing I lack is confidence. Am scared of being judged, this not being about everything that I am, and completely opening to others. Today the win made me to "Just do it", but now am back to the same scenario.

I have a story to tell with all the good words, and it all comes to my mind. Don't even have to pause for the words, but I still freeze the moment open this site. Am still scared to put myself for display. Always hated being photographed, you will find me behind the camera. I just don't find myself to be good enough to be the on the front. Am a terrible spokesperson, a terrible dancer, terrible singer when am in a platform and when there are ppl to judge me.

I hate being judged, so I tend to stay within the norms set by the society. For all those who thought me to be the rebellious kind, this might come as a surprise, but those who really know me will understand.

And now I understood what my problem really was, ADHD, my thoughts tends to wander off. So will not make a good blogger. And you really have to be more open, which is not a good option for me. I like to keep my secrets, not cos being mysterious is sexy, cos those secrets will hurt lot of ppl and relations.

Yahhhooooooooooooooooo....! Yipppeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...! Oyooyoooooooooooooyoooooooooooooy.....!

We won the Cricket World Cup...

And Yipppeeeee to getting my son to sleep at 1am. You may take me to be bad mother, but the Cricket fever does that to you. Oh! And I haven't really been bad, I did get him to sleep by 9pm, its just my shouting plus the sounds of bursting crackers and drums in the last over, woke him up. I am really sorry, may be not so much, cos he was able to enjoy our win too.

Getting him back to sleep was tough, what with all the shouting in our building and surroundings, to disturb him. Just happy he is asleep again.

Even though I enjoyed this win, was sad I had to watch the match alone. What I wouldn't do to be with my friends and family to really enjoy this. Anyway, don't want to destroy the moment with my senti dialogues.

God, what I wouldn't do be there in the stadium with thousands of others to watch it. Though I didn't the Active Cricket, it was kinda boring.. Kudos to our team of youngsters for this win.

Small cricket trivia: The first world cup we won was in '83, the year i was born. And the second was the world cup after my Son's birth and also the same month. May be me and my family might be proving lucky for my country. Oh, if my son is more lucky we will win all the future world cups, if the world doesn't according to Mayan calender.